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Ebun

Little Ebun was playing in the “backyard” near the clothes line. Suddenly she heard her mother’s voice calling out “Ebunayo!!”. “Ma!”, she answered reflexively, running round the side of the apartment building to the front gate. She opened the pedestrian side, looking out on the street and around for her mother, careful not to go outside. Her neighbourhood was not the safest of places.

She drew back in, not really puzzled, just so very happy that she wouldn’t have to be home alone again today. She could count on one little chubby hand just how many times she had seen Mother or Father during the day in the last month, okay one hand for each of them she amended with a giggle.

She rummaged around in her dungarees for her key to her family’s cozy apartment and got it in the lock on the second try. She hoped Mama wasn’t mad that she had to let herself in and wasn’t too tired to play. Ebun shut the door, remembered to turn the key twice to lock it properly and then took out her key.

She made her way to her parent’s room and knocked twice before turning the knob. It was then it occurred to her that Mum’s coat wasn’t slung over the couch like it always was when she got back from work. By now she was in and could see that her parent’s room was empty.

Increasingly confused and even more sad she was about to leave when she thought she heard a faint trickle of water from her parent’s bathroom. Since she wasn’t allowed in there, she tentatively opened the door and sure enough there was Maami, sitting on the closed WC. But something was wrong, Mother was sobbing with her head bowed and her shoulders shaking. “Mummy..” Ebun said, “Mummy, what’s wrong?” her already tiny voice barely a whisper. Mother slowly looked up and on some deeper level than she could fully comprehend, Ebun knew things had gone lightyears beyond wrong.

Mother’s eyes were blank, completely white with crimson tears brimming at the corners. And she wasn’t sobbing oh no, it was grotesque mirth that moved her petite frame. Her face was a parody of jollity and her grin reminded Ebun of the huge rat that had been staring at her early the previous morning. And then she sang:

Ebun mi ma re o
Ebun oluwa
Ebun mi ma re o
Ebun olorun mi

It was the song her mother had made up when Daddy said he did not want her to call Ebun “Princess” for fear of spoiling her. The.. Thing’s voice filled Ebun’s mind with pure unadulterated fear. It was the snicker of the bogeymen under her bed. It was the big mean children pushing her down in the sand on the playground for being too quiet. It was death and decay and rot and everything that had ever gone bump in the night.

She made to stand up and Ebun promptly passed out, her mouth frozen in a little “o” as she had tried to draw breath to scream. That was how her parents found her and rushed her to the neighbourhood clinic down the road. She was resuscitated and looked after. The next day she had her first asthma attack, wheezing just like her mother.

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“Stupid woman. The double agent was obviously hiding in the doorway. Nonsense.”, Ebun muttered to no one in particular. This is boarding school and she is now a skinny awkward teenager bearing the label of “weirdo”, what with her head always being buried in books.

She was on her way to the dinning hall for lunch, she had perfected the art of reading while walking. Suddenly, while descending the last and longest flight of stairs to the hall, she heard a whisper right by her ear, her mother saying “Ebunayo?” in a quiet worried tone. “Ma?” She answered turning her head to the side, her mind still mostly in the tale of Soviet espionage. But there was no one there and in the split second it took for her to register surprise she made a misstep and went tumbling down the stairs, landing on her shoulder which gave out with a loud “Pop!”.

Not one for unnecessary attention, she got herself up with her good hand, brushing off those who had rushed to help her while ignoring the hastily muffled laughter of those who were dying to say “I told you so.”, “Reading while walking is a bad habit, now you’ll learn.” or some such irritating variant. Snatching up her novel, she walked back up the stairs and made her way to the sickbay, grunting with pain.

Normally she would laugh at her clumsy self but she was not in that mood. There was something nagging at the corner of her mind and it was annoying that she couldn’t grasp it.
She got to the sickbay and the nurses made a fuss over her, displaying their Mother Hen feathers in all their glory. Her shoulder was set, and a sling put on it. She was then send to the “ward” to rest.

Waking up after a relaxing nap Ebun found her mother was sitting by her bed, head bowed, apparently dozing. She groaned, sure she has slept for longer than she thought and the nurses had called her mother. Worrywart that she was, she would have sped over almost immediately. Her eyes glanced briefly at the wall clock and she noted that it was 3:40pm. Then it clicked; lunch was at 2:30, there was no way on earth Mother could have gotten to her school in so short a time, not without a helicopter and even then. All this thought out in less than the second it took for Ebun to turn her head back to the woman seated beside her.

The woman’s head was up now and the distant feeling of unease that she had had was forcibly yanked and thrown on center stage. It was her mother alright, or her evil dopplegänger as seen when she was but 5, and mercifully repressed until now. The.. Thing cocked its head, letting a crimson tear spill over watching Ebun’s eyes widen as she began to gasp.

The.. woman moved a puppet-like arm and touched Ebun’s damaged shoulder. She couldn’t move, all her joints were locked with fear, even as screams echoed from the walls of her mind. The woman sang in her voice of ten thousand fingernails on chalkboards and a thousand quarries at work, yet barely above a whisper:

Ebun mi ma re o
Ebun oluwa
Ebun mi ma re o
Ebun olorun mi

She laughed and vanished, the gutchurning sound lingering after her. And then Ebun screamed, and screamed, and screamed. The nurses rushed in to see what was wrong. When nothing was immediately amiss, they wrote it off as a more violent delayed reaction to the pain, because no girl her age should be so stoic.

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Ebun’s mother looked at her with tears in her eyes, she was that happy. She was joyous in fact. Her only daughter, her Morenikeji, was getting married tomorrow and she had never seen her daughter so radiant. She was practically bouncing, giggling and chatting with everyone that had come to spend her last day of spinsterhood with her.

Iya Ebun had been worried that she might lapse into one of her odd episodes of depression like the time she was 5 or the other when she dislocated her shoulder. Ebun had refused to talk for days then and had looked at her accusingly, almost as if she knew… No, that wasn’t possible. She had best go clear her head before she did or said something stupid. With that she went down the hall to the nearest restroom.

As she was washing up at the sink, she looked in the mirror above it and froze. Her reflection had blank eyes, bloody tears, was wrapped in a pure white cloth edged with cowries and wore a ghoulish grin. Speaking with the voice of a hundred untuned guitars she said:

“Asiko ti ya. You’ve had her long enough, it is time to pay.”

“No, rara o! This is not what was agreed. Mi o gba! Take my only child away from me? At this time? While I’m still alive?! Olorun maje!” Iya Ebun replied in a fervent panicked whisper.

“Aje melo l’Olorun ni?”, countered her dopplegänger laughing.

Iya Ebun ran out with the mocking sound at her heels. She returned to the festivities and met pandemonium. Ebun was having the worst asthma attack she had ever seen. Everyone was scrambling for an inhaler but those found were either empty or jammed. Iya Ebun ran to her daughter’s side praying she wasn’t too late and sang her song, Ebun’s song, as it should have been all along:

Ebun mi ma re o
Ebun aye o
Ebun mi ma re o
Ebun Yeye Osun

On the last note, Ebun went still and her mother’s tears flowed like her spirit would go out through them and bring Ebun back as they made contact with her cooling skin. But she had made a deal and they had come to collect, come to collect..

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We Shall Dance: The Sacrifice

Welcome wayfaring strangers to my humble domain, as I bring to you another hopefully worthwhile piece. I believe every writer should write first and foremost for his/herself. It is nevertheless gratifying when others appreciate said writing. Even more so when someone else is able to draw inspiration from it. It is on this note that I bring to you @JOSHUA_LEAN ‘s version, or perhaps interpretation, of my previous work “We Shall Dance” *exits stage left to drumroll*…..

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Dusk walks in unannounced as the sun submits to the lure of the enchantress moon… She creeps through open doors without fear of waking the sleeping children. She whispers in their ears – setting their minds ablaze with wild dreams. The art of being intangible.

In another world where we have no sleep, the night is wild with ferocity and so are our spirits. We hear the thunderclap and we know it is time, we know we have our audience, those who watch from their lofty thrones above.

We circle the moto, the fire, our naked bodies shimmering in its glow.
We bow our heads, careful not to look at the reticent skies for it is an abomination to look at Angani’s silvery visage while the ceremony is performed, until the Miungu, the Sacred Ones, have decided our fate.

We dig our heads into the sharp sand and clap our hands, we wriggle our hips until the trees have no choice but to join us. The wind blows hard at our faces, mocking us, but we will not give in.

We bend our necks and lift our hands, our brazen skin and toned muscles make us appear Amazonian.
The wind rushes at us with renewed force like expectant children tugging at our ankles, threatening to throw us off balance.

No, no! We will not be shut up!
They must receive us!!
We clench our fists and grit our teeth!
They will receive us!!

We twist our waists and kick with our feet.
We jump until gravity’s jealous grip draws us back to Mother Earth with heavy stomps.
We scream now to the skies, to the Miungu, begging them to take our lives so that our children might be free from the primordial curse.
We beat our chests now and march… No one being faster or slower than the other, in perfect symphony we march on.

Just like the ones before us, we have prepared a thousand years for this… But they were careless! And so failed to place the shackles of age back on our necks. But this time imperfection is not an option.

Feeling the time is right..we move towards the moto..towards the great flame..towards our belated beginning..towards Usahaulifu.

But as we advance we feel the earth quake under our bruised soles.
The message was clear – They wanted our young ones, the Sacred Ones did not deem us pure enough to carry on with the ceremony. They had chosen our first-borns as they did the time before and the time before that.

We had prepared them for this. The kuhani, in his priestly grab, had washed our first-borns.. as he had washed us…
Slitting their wrists and then drinking of the red stream..
Mixing the blood with his saliva, he spat on their heads chanting his jargons.
The young ones marched towards the fire as we watched them for it was forbidden to look away.. We stared at their expressionless faces, we wept within us but our gaze remained fixed on our children..

No, on the sacrifice.

Their cheeks were white as the bahari shakwe’s, the sea gull’s, feathers.. It was the last we would see of them, they did not look back at us..
At their parents..no, their caretakers.
The smell of burnt flesh permeated the air as the first stepped into the flame…
Then the second..third..fourth…
There were no protestations,no screams, no curses…
Just the enervating silence.
We watched as the kuhani’s daughter entered her destiny.. It was tradition that the priest’s child goes either first or last. If it was a boy, then he would be the first to go, if a girl she would kiss Usahaulifu last.
We inhaled, filling our lungs with our children’s essence, their blameless roho, their spotless spirits.
After this was done, the kuhani rose from where he sat, his face now cadaverous with grief. He opened his mouth to speak..
“Ki nosa, it is done.” he said.. “Ki nosa”.
As he turned to leave, the oldest among us shook his head vigorously..
“Hakuna!!” he shouted, his eyes burning with sorrow,
“Hakuna zaidi, no more!!”
His voice piercing the tranquill darkness like a blade thrown from an apoplectic hand.
For moments he just stared at our faces, looking in every eye. Then just as quick as his outrage came he began to dance with all the vigor he could muster… And we joined him….

Wriggling our hands and turning our waists as our joints threatened to detach..
We stomped our feet and we screamed louder than ever.
We would dance, dance till the valleys were raised and the mountains gave way.
We would dance till the heavens were lowered and till the ground rejected our dead and till they breathed with new life.
We would dance and we will not stop, we had forever.

We would dance till the skies poured hot rain as libation in our honor.
We would dance until the trees shot up to the heavens and brought down the gods..

It was their turn to bow before us.
It was our turn to be appeased.

– JSL.

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We Shall Dance

We tie our wrappers and test our anklets
We cast our cowries and say our chants
As we prepare to dance….

We shall dance till the rough soil tears our soles
And our blood runs as libation to the gods

With every stomp of our feet
We call on them to hear our pleas
With every twist of our waists
We pray that we not be laid to waste

With every breath we take, we fuel our frenzy
With every movement we make, we do supplicate

We shall dance till the rains fall
And the crops grow
Till the women give birth
And the men grow old

We shall dance till our brave sons
Come home from the war
Till our daughters have breasts
Full and ripe to devour

We shall dance to children’s laughter
We shall dance to lovers’ sighs
We shall dance to creaking old bones
We shall dance to words of old souls

We shall dance from dusk till dawn
We shall dance come storm, come sun

We shall dance as rain pelts our skin
And flowers bloom at our feet
We shall dance as the sun warms our souls
And dries our sweat and wheat

We shall dance to our heartbeats
As our pulse drives us on

We dance for we cannot help it
We dance for there’s no other way
We dance for the love of life
We dance into the afterlife

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